That is looking the best I ever have.
When I was in my teens I was a pretty high level swimmer. High enough in fact that there was a very good chance I was going to try out for the Olympic team. However, after tearing both rotator cuffs from overtraining, my swimming career was over.
When I was competitively swimming though, I was ripped!
Full six pack and all! The irony is that I still had major insecurities even though looking back, I looked pretty awesome!
During college I saw things change, no longer was I swimming hours and hours a day. That had all stopped and between trying to go through physical therapy school and fighting some of those injuries I had suffered, I saw my body change.
While I never got to a “heavy” point, I was much different than I was familiar with. It made me feel self-conscious, but fortunately I was going to school during the days of grunge so I could hide my body under some layers of flannel.
Even though I could hide my body, hiding my insecurity about my body was always much harder. I was “okay” with how I was, but definitely didn’t have the confidence that I would have liked to have had.
In practicing physical therapy my first few years, I worked out, at least I thought I did. I was able to keep what I thought was a reasonable look, yet, I always had the image of my swimming days somewhere in the back of my head.
For this time I was comfortable, but then I became involved in the fitness industry. Working with Josh on the DVRT Ultimate Sandbag Training system exposed to me to a whole different world! One where looking “good” wasn’t close to “good enough”.
I started to notice the difference just in the interaction of people I “met” on Facebook. All of a sudden I was being inundated by “inspirational” and “motivational” images with women that had physiques that were crazy!
Hearing how people talked obsessively about food, training, and everything else began taking a toll on me. When I once felt pretty good in my own skin, I started feeling horrible about myself. I thought I looked fit and healthy and now I was starting to feel like I was overweight and out of shape.
Fitness actually started to build more insecurities even though I was training harder and becoming more fit than ever before in my adult life. I was conquering a pretty debilitating low back injury, starting to get close to my first ever pull-ups since my rotator cuffs blew, and ironically, I felt the worst about myself ever!
What I started to realize was the image that we as women were being fed as “fit and healthy” was anything but! It was obsession, it was neurotic behavior that wasn’t healthy at all, it was actually very destructive.
The more I interacted with people I saw that these “good looking” people were more miserable than I was. They lived off of the approval of others, always stressed they weren’t “good enough”. They couldn’t be with friends and family without a commotion about their food and training.
Some may say this is dedication. I ask, dedication for what purpose? I was more dedicated than anyone to my athletic career. When it ended my goal was no longer the Olympics, it was life.
I’ve learned in the past (especially year) that fitness and health isn’t about extremes. It isn’t about paralyzing your whole life so that you can TRY to attain a physique that leaves you only still feeling bad about yourself.
That is why I have my own vision for DVRT Ultimate Sandbag Training. I want DVRT to be a program that empowers, inspires, and makes women feel powerful! Not just physically, but in the way we see ourselves, the things we think we can accomplish, and feeling proud of who we are and what we do.
I hope more and more women see DVRT Ultimate Sandbag Training as a representation of my own vision. I hope that you get inspired by our DVRT Ultimate Sandbag Training workouts to challenge yourself, but more importantly, empower yourself to be the best YOU that you can be.
In life there is a challenge, learning to love who you are and wanting to make yourself a bit better every day. Not for some stranger in social media, but for your family and yourself!
“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life.” –Steve Jobs